Sorry I haven't posted in a while... I've been busy for the past week or so.

You know, it's a little funny, but I wrote two entries already, without really telling you any real details about myself. So, well, I think now is a good time to start.

I'm a college student at UC Los Angeles; I'm graduating this quarter. I'm a bit excited about it, because I'm going to finally get to see what the world has to offer me. I'm eager to get into the video game industry, and, someday, hope to become a 3D animator. It's part of the reason why I've been so busy: I've been spending a lot of time trying to get hold of certain contacts within the industry, and trying to hone my artistic skills. Although I was a bit of a rebellious youth, I'm very close to my parents now, especially my mom; she's the woman I hold dearest to me. My family isn't rich, but we're comfortably well-off and very close knit. No pets, but I do really want a dog... a nice big one. I love dogs, and they love me. I miss my last dog... a miniature pinscher... I'm a bit computer savvy. Nothing too hardcore, but I do know how to tech most problems I run into and have built all my family's computers in the last 7-8 years. I love to draw... it's one of my passions in life. I can seriously get lost in a drawing for hours, just adding detail after detail. I hope to go to art school someday, but feel like I might not get that chance; too many responsibilities to take care of to just drop everything and go to school AGAIN. I want to say I'm shy, but it's actually a bit inconsistent. There are times when I'm friendly and outgoing; other times when I become a complete social hermit. It really depends on my level of comfort, but I think most people are like that in some ways. Well, it's late, and those are the only details that really come to my mind. Maybe i'll add more later...

I'm feeling a bit down at the moment. There was this girl that I kind of met... we were starting to really hit it off. Well, until I realized that I don't know where I'll be in the next few weeks. Once I mentioned that, we both realized that it would be a bit risky to rush into a relationship, only to have it broken up in a few weeks. So... we both decided to just put that on hold. She said, in the meantime, it's best if she isn't around me, because she doesn't want to like me anymore than she does now. I was... a bit heartbroken. It's been a while since I found a girl who had so much in common with me, and I really feel like we would have had some really good times... well, I guess I might never know.

I'm being a bit pessimistic, as usual. I mean, I might land a job in the LA area... and then I could call her up and maybe get it started again (keeping my fingers crossed). Keep your fingers crossed for me too, guys. I really need the extra luck.

 Oh, and I'm groovin to Corinne Bailey Rae... she has a classic sound. 

*agghh* I've always been a bit of a night person; always preferred the quiet solitude that the late hours bring. However, it's not the best way to go when you have things to do during the day. Oh well, it's 1:00AM and I've got nothing to do, so I might as well write another entry...

Anyways, I might as well continue on the topic of girls... yes.... girls. Getting to know them and converse with them is simple enough. All I remember to do is be nice, watch what I say, but still act like myself, but it's when there's attraction involved that I'm totally confused and lost. It's the little things that girls do that I can't seem to have a good handle on. You see, one of the key ways I've trained myself to be comfortable around girls is to pretend I'm talking to guys. Of course, I don't talk about the "guy topics" (e.g., girls, porn, hot celebrity women... you get the picture), but it does help to just treat them like I would a normal guy friend. However, sometimes girls do things that I tend to misinterpret, which ultimately leads to some awkward situations. For instance, sometimes they'll purposely "ignore" me, so that I try to get their attention and say hi. Of course, my dunder-headed self will think they're actually ignoring me and just walk away. Then, a few days will go by, and they'll start wondering why I'M starting to ignore them, things get awkward, and the rest is history. Yes, I know, it's awesome...

I guess the problem is that I keep thinking about them as "guys," which helps me to get comfortable, but not if I might want to actually go out with them; mainly because I end up being completely oblivious to the signals they're sending. Since guys are pretty straightforward with other guys, I tend to just interpret the girls' actions at face value. So if they hint at something, or do something to try and provoke a response out of me... I'll totally miss it. And believe me, I've blundered across quite a few potential relationships. It's a pathetic state of affairs, but I'm trying to learn from my mistakes. Hopefully I'll learn quickly enough to get into another relationship before I'm a decrepit old man.

    Welp, here it is... my very first blog. I've had two blogs before this, but scrapped them for various reasons. The first one was due to the fact that all my friends were reading it, and I had to really censor some of my thoughts. Of course, they DID have that whole "private" function on there, but I guess I was just too lazy/weird to bother with it. Haha, who knows.

    The second blog... well... due to some complications I just decided to leave that one behind. Decided to say farewell to Xanga as well, but I don't really regret it, especially after finding this place! It's great! Huge steps up from Xanga, and the templates are just awesome (although I'm sure there are a thousand people with my exact template, LOL).

     Well, what to talk about? I suppose, for this first entry, I want to talk about girls. After spending 25 years on this desolate planet, I've suddenly realized that I just don't really understand them. I've tried, but it just doesn't seem to work out well for me. Don't get me wrong, I have female friends; I'm not a complete lost cause. The thing is, my girl friends and I aren't attracted to each other in the least bit. It's when there's attraction involved, on either side, that things get really tricky for me. Well, I'll elaborate on this some more later...  but I AM actually getting a bit tired... sorry to have to do this to you, but until next time!